I am over weight. I am meal tracking and exercise tracking so i can get healthy. I do not look at BMIs as i have bever fit that mold. I have also recently started a bew job and it has made me realise that despite having done some bad things in my past, they have made me more aware of thise around me and turned me into an annoyingly positive person.
This has made me more life conscious, over all. So i started to piece together a to do chart for daily activities.
As i said yesterday i have a lived ine with BPD so i have iver the last year or so been more active in doing chores and so i had decided to not make it a chore list. I wanted to be more accountable to myself and that led me to realise heakth has been very much about being there for my kids. So i decided to ask them what they wanted to see in the list. My beautiful 6 year old daughter immediately said be on my mobile less. Tsh! Crack number one. I only see my kids on weekends and for about 2 hours Monday to Friday. I thought i do pretty well at being present but my perception and hers is obviously different. So to do number one: less mobile.
My 4 year old wonder-bot is much sillier and I fully expecting to get an answer like “find a unicorn tree?!?” And i got be less angry. Tsh! Shatter!!!
To be clear i am strict and firm. I ket my kids be very free soirited and would protect their wonder with my own life but i dont tolerate tantrums or impoliteness or backchat. I never strike, pinch or touch my kids in anger. They are my world and i want them to be everything they can be and want to be but i really want them to be the best version of themselves. A saying that resonated with me since i first saw it is ” go out in the world and do well, but more importantly go out in the world and do good!”
I actively and consciously control my anger, as i have an incredibly short fuse. Again my perception and theirs is different and apparently i have more work to do.
As i progress i will post more.
What happened woz.... 